I have spent some time finishing a painting and sending it off to a friend, and I have made some felt critters for some friends at a coffee shop. I've also done a few abstracts, but that is about all.
Weariness is my constant companion, and after a visit with the doctor, and a change in meds, I am not sure how I am feeling. I am half way through stopping one and beginning another and trying to decide if it is making any difference yet. Blood tests and an x ray also added to my itinerary, and another Dr. appointment in a week. If wishing could make me energetic and strong I would be jumping up and down, getting out to weed and clean out my garden, such as it is, and get a wrought iron pole for my bird feeder. I fear my friendly birds have felt abandoned, since I haven't put food out for them in weeks. A couple of raccoons were raiding the feeder so I decided to stop.
My daughter is busy in the orchard now as Spring had bought decent weather most days. Blossoms on the early varieties are ready to come out. I must get over and take a walk through the orchard, since she has also planted new trees. That will happen, if and when I ever get that strength and desire to move.
I hadn't realized how depression can sneak up on you and take over without you realizing it. I have had no desire to eat for months, and told the doctor that I didn't care if I ate or not. Along with other symptoms, it seems that though I thought I was doing okay the old depression was having its way with me. Hopefully the switch in medication will work. I didn't realize my not caring attitude was affecting my health and causing my girls concern. Now I must do my best to set their minds at ease.
Here are a few photos of the work I have done, and perhaps I will throw in a few of Aslan, who does his best to keep me from working on my projects, bless his little feline heart.
This post has sat for days, so I will publish it today as it is now the 29th of May.
Ahhhhh.....someday perhaps I will get things done in a proper manner. .......
Bonnie take one step at a time, that is all anyone can do. As Carole-Anne said there is no proper manner in doing stuff, just be your wonderful, talented self, and don't forget to thank you know who for every day we have to give and share with friends and family. xo Bonnie !!!! Keep up the blog.
ReplyDeleteThank you for your comments and I am thankful for each day I am given.
DeleteI hope that the new meds will make an improvement. Being tired all the time can easily lead to depression.
ReplyDeleteI am still in the midst of changing and hopefully things will get better. It certainly would be nice. Thanks for commenting.
DeleteBonnie, I'm glad to see a post from you. Aslan is a perfect companion for you. I can tell how much you enjoy him. Your paintings are so intricate - I can't imagine having the patience and talent to do them. Take Care of yourself and be kind to yourself.
ReplyDeleteThank you so much Barb. I am trying to get back in the swing of things, but it has been a long journey. I am feeling a bit better so that's a good thing.
DeleteBonnie, just stopped by to see how you are doing. Sorry to hear that the depression is so challenging. It seems a slow draining energy-sucking illness that makes life seem dark and dismal and meaningless. Glad to hear that you're feeling a bit better, though. Wishing you continued improvement.
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